Supercollider? I'll take the soup!

hmmm, not bad at all

2008-01-09T13:54:10Z

also, since i didn't mention it yesterday, happy 1-year anniversary to me and my job. as of yesterday, i've been at this job for year. and not only did my job keep me, i have not quit yet! and i think that's pretty darn special, for restlessness is in my nature. maybe i'm settling down and becoming an adult? oh, probably not... but i am finding that it's best for me to actually have employment on my resume that lasts for more than a year, and i do enjoy this job even if i know it's not my ultimate goal of where i want to stay until i retire, or die, which is most likely when i'll actually stop working. so woo for me keeping a job for a whole year... technically now a year and a day! i rock!

finally, today is my friday at work, sort of. i don't have off work thursday or friday, but i have a big fancy dpw med training to go to since i'm a med trainer and we're switching our training program. so this is my last day in the office, and truthfully i have almost nothing that needs to be done. i have to fill a couple slots on the schedule to make sure shifts are covered for the weekend, and i have to try to make alfred stop being a dumbass. other than that i'm pretty sure i'm going to clean up my work computer a bit because it's got so many unnecessary files on it that i can't find the ones i really do need. maybe i'll do some paper filing as well. yup, it's exciting, hence why i'm posting on livejournal.

also, i have UNSCHEDULED TIME this weekend, and we all know that that is NO GOOD for me. i dislike unscheduled time. if anybody lives remotely close to me (read: sorry julie and chris and lauren, but if i can drive there in a few hours i'm cool) and wants to hang out, i am all over that! if nobody is free, i am going to watch cspan for the entire weekend, and that just can't be healthy.

masshysteria @ 2007-06-13T21:38:00

2007-06-14T01:51:02Z

i always said this day would come. did anyone listen? of course not...

zombies. yup, zombies.

but of course, you all know that by now, if there's even anybody left alive to read this. well, i guess if i'm here to write this, there has to be SOMEBODY left to read. but probably not for long.

i certainly won't be. i've always said that once the zombies came, i'd kill myself before they got a chance to do it. and i was lucky enough to last long enough to do just that. goodbye and good luck.

(note: it's blog like it's the end of the world day. there are not really zombies, nor am i actually killing myself. i realize that intelligent people should realize this, but i feel that some people may need to be told.)

masshysteria @ 2006-08-28T11:07:00

2006-08-28T15:12:39Z

remember the days when my life was boring and predictable? well, i kind of miss that. this year, my life has taken so many turns for the weird... mostly bad, sometimes neutral, occasionally good. but always bizarre. i told miriam that my life has turned into an edgy adult sitcom. at least it's not boring.

on a completely different note, who knows when celeste is getting back from india? or if you're celeste and you're already back, then why the hell haven't you called me, bitch?

kitties!!!

2006-05-24T01:06:23Z

so i just realized that i never did post any pictures of my cats on the internet, and not all of you have seen them, or at least not recently, and belzer -- who used to be a cute little kitten -- has gotten huge and magnificent.

i took my monsters to the vet today and he told me i do a wonderful job taking care of them and they're both very healthy. so yay for that. belzer is just over a year old and weighs 16.6 pounds, which means that he is massive, and definitely too big for trying to sit on my shoulder like a parrot (something he likes to do), but i'm told he's just big-boned (honestly, that's what the vet said!) AND he entertained the vet, who said that it's incredibly rare for a cat to run around and play in the office after he's finished having a checkup and getting shots. that's really just because belzer is incredibly stupid, yet lovable. nobody could expect me to get cats without personality, could they?

and now pictures of adorable cats!!!

that's belzer playing with something under my computer chair

rufus, being cute

as for me, i'm still somewhat mopey, in pain, and spacey from painkillers. however, 2 days until thursday, when hopefully my jaw-related woes will come to an end! wish me luck and compliment me on my lovely kitties!

my questions from miriam!

2006-05-10T01:19:36Z

more of the 5 questions, because i have no life!

1. How do you have and remember such weird and interesting dreams?
i think i have them because i have a generally fucked-up psyche, and my weird dreams are part of my way of dealing with life. i'm not sure why i remember my weird dreams more than most people do... it might be because i usually wake up like 50 times a night, so i always remember coming out of a dream. but i'm not sure that that's an accurate scientific explanation. i'm going to go with my original explanation and say that it's all because i'm awesome.

2. Other than purple hair, what part of your body, if any, would you wish to change from it's natural state? I'm talking sholderblades become wings, skin is green and able to make energy from the sun, nose able to detach...
i'd like lasers in my eyes. for no real reason except that i'd love to shoot laser beams from my eyes.

3. If Belzer and Rufus weren't both fixed boys and they had kittens, what would the kittens' temperment and names be?
i think the kittens would be wacky but hopefully a little smarter than belzer. and i'd definitely name them all gomez.

4. What was your favorite halloween costume from the past 6 years? Why?
well, i didn't dress up that much in the past 6 years, just a couple times. i would, however, have to say this past year's golden snitch costume for the harry potter party, because i ultimately ended up looking like a shiny gold hooker.

5. If 900 lbs of bananas would fit into your pants, how many lbs of bananas would fit into Hopkins.
holy crap, that's a lot of bananas... hopkins is a lot bigger than my pants. i'd have to say about 15,000 pounds of bananas.

5 questions from julie!!

2006-05-09T11:36:53Z

alright, here are my 5 questions from julie...

1. You get a call to join a band as their official roadie, but they need a name. What's it going to be?
i think "nudist romp with tom selleck". i would love to be a part of that magic.

2. As of this week, how many thousands of babies do you owe to various celebrities?
hmm... i think i have like 135 people on my 10,000 babies list. so that would be 1,350,000. that's a hell of a lot.

3. Is it just me, or was that new partner Cragen stuck Elliot with way worse than Elliot? If you could force them to make the show about Munch and Fin for the duration of Mariska Hargitay's pregnancy, would you? And how would you do it?
yes, that new partner was way worse than elliot. he was a total buttmunch. and about the munch and fin thing, i would love to see a show on them, but i don't know that i'd do it because i think it might bring viewership down if i just made the show about them or made a show called "richard belzer's tapdancing detective unit" or something like that (which i would totally watch)... but i do think that with mariska hargitay being busy procreating and all that, they should let munch and fin pick up some of the slack and give them more air time, instead of just concentrating on elliot and his buttmunch temporary partners for the next few months. it'll get way old.

4. The Goblet of Fire becomes enchanted, allowing it to continuously refill itself with either water or 1 alcoholic beverage. What alcoholic beverage will it be?
first let me make sure of this: i'll still be able to drink water from other cups, right? it's not like i have to only drink alcohol forever if i pick the alcoholic beverage. cause then i'd die of dehydration and that would suck. but i think i'd pick long island iced tea, because it's tasty and it's efficient... it packs a lot of alcohol into a small space :-P

5. If you could live anywhere for 3 months without money, travel expense or language concerns, where would it be?
ireland, i think. or australia. i've always wanted to go to those places.

teehee

2006-04-28T02:34:24Z

<td align="center"> Bernadette --
[adjective]:

Insatiable to the point of crazy

'How will you be defined in the sexual dictionary?' at QuizUniverse.com</td>

also, i had a nice long talk with miriam today about how we would both like to play sexual pirates someday (but not together). this game involves being tied up on a boat, scurvy, a parrot, and of course, getting lots of splinters from having sex on said boat.

this is what nadine and i having a wholesome weekend looks like...

2006-04-02T23:26:55Z

yesterday, nadine and brian visited me here in bethlehem, and we spent the day watching more bad zombie movies. then we went and ate a festive mexican dinner, and they kidnapped me and took me to lancaster with them for the night. today, nadine and i decided that we should try to be more wholesome to impress my therapist, so we got up and went to church, which was excellent. we decided that we love the reverend with the british accent. then we got sandwiches and rita's, played some wario ware, and made this video because we are so awesome.

yeah, we're weird.

now i'm back in bethlehem, i took a walk outside, and i'm going to eat dinner. big plans, those are.

reflections (look at bernie being deep)

2006-03-31T02:02:36Z

it's so strange. for the first time since i left the damn place, today i miss iup. and i think it's the weather, because this was the time of the year that i actually enjoyed walking around the campus and being outside. and doing things like sitting in big flowerpots. and here at lehigh, i don't know the campus at all, and i see the occasional student sitting outside doing homework, and i just get this weird urge to find a very strange place and just sit there and read (even if the only book i have is ayn rand and i'd much rather rip it to shreds than actually read it).

i've also noticed that this is an incredibly bizarre time of the year for me. the end of winter/beginning of spring, for the last 3 years at least, is the time of year when i'm both incredibly sad and incredibly happy, when i tend to be completely lost and then somehow find myself again, when my life falls apart and i have to put it back together the best i can.

the start of this trend, the best i can pinpoint, is 3 years ago when rashaud decided that we needed to "take a break" or whatever and stopped talking to me for 2 months, which nearly killed me (pretty much literally). that sent me into a downward spiral which i actually came out of much better because that's when i found my dirty hippie side and started joining every organization at iup and sitting in flowerpots with celeste.

the next year, the best i can remember, had no major catastrophes, except that it was around this time of year that rashaud and i had considerable arguments over his parents not thinking i was good enough, which had me in tears a lot because... well, having your fiance tell you that his parents don't like you and it's all your fault isn't something that's fun to hear. however, this was, i recall, the same time that i had an ian staying with me for 2 weeks, which is one of my fondest memories from that year (or maybe even my entire college career), because ian and i did almost nothing but eat and watch bad television (like staying up until 4 am to watch boy meets world and 3rd rock from the sun), and that was the time of the crazy bread night.

and last year... well, if people who are reading this don't know that rashaud and i broke up last year at pretty much this time, then you're just really slow. and yet i made it through the rest of my semester and ended up having many crazy fun times. so maybe the spring equinox really just hates me, and it is, in fact, not a coincidence that i broke up with 2 boyfriends on the same date 2 years in a row.

and yet, right now i'm feeling ok, good even. the weather is beautiful, i just took the last midterm of my grad school career (well, unless i decide to go back eventually, which is quite probable... but for now, it's the last one) and it went well, i've been doing well in my quest to eat healthy, i had an awesome weekend with nadine last weekend with lots of zombie weekends and some john eddie, and i feel right now like i generally have my life under control, which is something that is rare for me. so yay.

however, i am freakin exhausted now even though it's only 9, so i don't know what i'm going to do about that... it's not bedtime, but i'm certainly not being functional anymore tonight. maybe some reading or law and order :)

this is how awesome i am

2006-03-22T12:20:33Z

so monday night i slept not very much, because i'm sure all of my friends are familiar with my sleeping difficulties when i am stressed. and then yesterday i went to work on little sleep, took a midterm that i didn't study for on little sleep, and probably failed said midterm. it's really the first time a test has nearly made me cry, and not only because of the little sleep and emotional events of the past couple days, either. the test just plain sucked.

anyway, i decided that i would drink a little bit of wine with my dinner last night to ensure that i'd actually sleep through the night. and since i've been trying to eat healthy lately, and for the most part being successful (with the exception of yesterday lunch, when i ate fast food because i was tired and cranky and i wanted junk food, damnit), i ate a salad, which isn't much in my tummy. so i believe i was a little tipsy. i called little john because i hadn't talked to him in a while and wanted to know how his life was going at his new job. and the point of this whole story is that he gave me his new address and i wrote it down. however, i wrote the city and state down as such:
Wallops IsanSalapnd VanV

makes a lot of sense, huh?

but the important thing is that i did sleep through the night last night.

if you stick it in your vagina, you owe me a toothbrush

2006-03-14T18:45:13Z

so here's an update about my crazy weekend in michigan, complete with pictures! i promised that i would have wacky adventures, and did i ever!

thursday: h newlin and i left after i got off work, and drove a million and one hours to michigan. it was fairly uneventful, except that we got a new boyfriend - a trucker named tom who stalked us a little bit during a traffic jam. aside from that incident, we arrived in ann arbor relatively unscathed at 2:30 am and stayed up until about 4:30 conversing and being generally ridiculous.

friday: woke up, ate macaroni and cheese, walked around ann arbor, went grocery shopping, and then met my uncle for dinner. that night we watched cannibal the musical and reefer madness the musical. they were both fabulous. also, celeste and i did a lot of singing about chutney and drove h and jarrid crazy.

saturday: this is when things get interesting. we left to pick miriam up from the airport, and my car DIED literally at the terminal. just stopped. and wouldn't start again, even when the nice airport tow truck man tried to jump start it. so we figured out that it was the alternator, and we managed to jump start it enough that i could drive it to a gas station very nearby and call aaa. here is a picture of poor hopkins on the tow truck.

also, the tow truck man was FABULOUS, even though he thought miriam was 12. and he pulled some weird piece of rubber out of my car and nobody has since figured out what it was doing there. my car then went off to someplace where it would be fixed on monday and we waited for a million years for celeste's friend johnny to come pick us up. while we were waiting for him to show up, miriam accidentally fed me coconut. luckily, we realized it early enough that i didn't die or have to use my epi-pen (which is, by the way, expired). but i did spit fruit snacks out in public.
once johnny showed up, we went back to celeste's house after a brief stop at the grocery store to pick up plastic cups and CHUTNEY just so we could make a line for chutney at the party that night.

incidentally, chutney tastes really bad.
and the party was fun, though i remember not too much of it. apparently, i got this guy
thrown at my head, which would explain why i was so achey when i woke up on sunday and why i still have a bump on my head. however, nobody can tell me how i broke 2 toes, but i did.

sunday: we all got up at some point, and were feeling lazy. the original intention was to sit around celeste's apartment all day, but after we got food in our bellies, we decided to go walk around ann arbor because it was a nice day. we got some men's pocky because apparently i'm really getting into men's pocky lately. it turned out to be delicious.

later that day, chris and julie left, but not before i took this fantastic picture of them with chris wearing celeste's very gay-pride-ish hat.

so then it was time to try to figure out how the hell we were going to go back to almost detroit to get my car the next day when none of us had a car, and we ended up with one of the most complicated plans in the world that turned out to be sort of fun. jarrid apparently has the nicest friends in the world who live near the place where my car was, and they were willing to get 4 of us and bring us to their house and let us stay the night and bring us to my car the next day. they also had the most adorable child in the world. so we went there, watched movies, and went to sleep.

monday: my car ended up not being ready until 4. and then we got lost both going to get my car and coming back from getting the damn car. this meant that h newlin and i didn't get out of ann arbor until about 7. we drove all night powered by energy drinks, a stop at eat 'n park in clarion, and singing like dumbasses. we got back to bethlehem at about 5 am, unloaded my car, and then took h to the bus station so she could go back to philly and try to go to work. i decided not to go to work and instead stay home and try to get a couple hours of sleep so i can make it to class tonight.

that may actually be one of the most action-packed weekends i've ever had, and celeste and h have both told me that the next time i say i want wacky adventures they're not hanging out with me. i think that may be a good decision.

wacky adventures!

2006-03-08T16:01:29Z

starting tomorrow, this will be my life!

i leave for michigan tomorrow after work once h newlin gets here! yippee!!!

unfortunately, today i am home from work sick. however, i will be better tomorrow because i will force it upon myself. because wacky adventures must ensue, damnit!

masshysteria @ 2006-03-02T22:24:00

2006-03-03T04:43:30Z

awesomest meme ever stolen from kittenshoes:

1. the age you'll be on your next birthday

2. your favorite color

you know, i never knew that the color blue was so damn sexy...

3. your middle name

4. where you'd like to lose your virginity

haaaaaaaaahahahaha, 10 points to anyone who can guess what i googled for this one :)

5. a bad habit of yours

yup... i'm a prostitute

6. favorite fruit or vegetable

7. favorite animal

8. the town you live in

9. the name of a pet

10. best friend's nickname

and that, my friends, is what you get when you google image search the word "meathead"

11. your first name

shit! i'm scared by that!

12. your last name

13. the one you love

meeeeep!

2006-03-02T03:18:49Z

so today i was so damn productive it hurt! (either that or the pain was just radiating from my wounded elbow...) i woke up in a funk, but i broke that funk with productivity. here is a list of things i did...
~picked up my paycheck, went to lunch with my dad, and paid my rent.
~took a walk.
~called a mental health professional to try to schedule an appointment to get my damn head back on track, so that by the time i move i can be at least somewhat mentally healthy. i didn't get to make an appointment today... had to leave a message... but still, it's a first step and the lady will call me back shortly.
~fixed my resume and applied to jobs at 2 different places.
~went to church because it's ash wednesday. (incidentally, i decided that i'm going to give up red meat for lent, because it will help me in my quest to eat healthier... not that i think red meat is always bad for you, but it will help me with various things, like not eating spaghettios, since i always have the ones with meatballs, and not eating really greasy cheeseburgers when i'm hungover.)
~called my uncle bill about possibly getting together sometime when i'm in michigan next week, because he and my aunt live about an hour from ann arbor and it would be silly to not even try to see them when i'm that close.

so yeah... in conclusion, i am awesome! and there is currently a NEW -- read it, NEW!!!-- law and order on the tv!! it's been like 3 weeks, and boy have i been missing it. so the rest of my night shall be spent watching tv and reading my required daily 5 pages of the fountainhead.

also, in related happy news, rhett miller's new cd came out yesterday! i don't yet have the money to buy it because i had to pay rent today and save the rest of the money i have to go to michigan, but the next paycheck i get i will immediately buy it (and the new harry potter movie that is coming out soon!) AND rhett miller, aka the most beautiful man in the world, is coming to philly in april, and i am going to see him. and i convinced joe to come with me, because he also thinks that rhett miller is pretty (though i'm not sure how good of a sign that is...)

alright, back to the television, because law and order is more important than all y'alls.

work-related injuries

2006-03-01T16:11:21Z

so i'm sure some of you at least are wondering about my away message yesterday that said i had a work-related injury, and obviously if i am playing with the livejournal right now then i'm not at work at the moment.

i got entirely bitch-slapped at work yesterday by one of our nastier clients and had to go to the hospital because he jammed my elbow, basically, and it hurt to bend and made icky popping noises and my pinky was tingling. they x-rayed me and nothing is broken, which i didn't expect it to be, but i do have a bruised nerve, hence the tingling, and the joint is swollen, hence the popping sounds. so i get anti-inflammatory drugs to make the swelling go down and eventually the tingling will stop. and for a couple days i'm supposed to not use my right arm so much, which is why i didn't go to work today, because it is very hard to do things when you can't bend your right arm. and i get made fun of a lot... after i got back from the er, joe and i went to dinner and i got laughed at muchly for not being able to do simple things like eat a sandwich. try it sometime... picking up a big sandwich without bending your right elbow. it's not easy. so i had to make joe cut my sandwich in half for me, and i felt pathetic. not to mention that we got the MEANEST waiter ever, to the point where it was comical. seriously dudes, this waiter had some problem with me and made fun of me all night. he didn't seem to have a problem with joe, but he made fun of me somehow every time he came to the table. i think i offended him when i only wanted water to drink, though i'm not sure why that would be offensive.

alright, i'm off now, i think. to do i have no idea what, because i've got nothing to do. but maybe i'll contemplate the idea that it's ash wednesday and if i want to give anything up for lent, i've got until later today to figure it out...

only 7 episodes of 7th heaven left! oh noooooo!

2006-02-27T23:54:23Z

nadine has seemingly inspired me after our weekend of hanging out and still eating somewhat healthy food. i have decided that i'm going to try to eat things that are good for me. because, quite frankly, i should probably do something that will not be conducive to me dying at 30. and also, i'm tired of feeling like a fatass (and the first person who weighs like 50 pounds less than me to tell me i'm not fat gets pimp-slapped, i swear.) so we're going to try being healthy for a little while and see if it flies. now, am i going to go crazy with this thing? hell no. i still ate some candy today, but i stuck to a proper serving size AND nothing that i ate all day was deep-fried. also, i drank milk, and i hate milk. but it's good for me, and i should drink it, probably... nutrition and all that. things that go in my mouth should have some nutritional content (unless i'm getting paid a dollar to put it in my mouth, in which case i've only got 2 rules, and we all know what those are...)

so yeah, that's my new plan. we'll see if i can be good until i go to michigan, because i have 2 very seriously not-healthy things planned for there: 1) eating flaming cheese, and 2) drinking heavily. and i would say that that can be my life plan. i'll try to eat good foods from now on, with the occasional trip to the dark side for binge drinking and cheese on fire (which, by the way, would be an excellent name for a band)

also, i am super-psyched for this upcoming visit to celeste's, because it is going to be the biggest game of how-many-people-can-we-fit-into-celeste's-apartment EVER!!! and while some people may enjoy personal space, i am not one of them. at least not when it comes to my friends :)

?

2006-02-27T12:17:32Z

i just woke up all disoriented because i had a wacky dream... i dreamed that i went to a hanson concert and i was the only girl there. the rest of the people were all really really tall guys and they were all hitting on me, including the substitute bass player who only had one arm and played the guitar behind his back with his one arm.

so, how many weight watchers points is semen worth anyway?

2006-02-27T04:04:30Z

i went to lancaster this weekend and proved that nadine and i can have a fun and awesome time without being constantly drunk (though i suppose we have done that before, i guess). we painted more pottery (i made a plate of fire) and picked up our stuff from last weekend. i drank out of my goblet of fire all weekend. friday night i drank a whole bottle of wine just because i wanted to see how much i could fit into my fantastic goblet. the answer is that it fits nearly a full bottle of wine... i think i'll be drinking a lot more wine from now on, just because i have this goblet. it's sad but true. friday night we watched freaks and it made me think of lauren. that is a movie that truly stands the test of time. saturday we watched collateral because i still want to be jamie foxx when i grow up, and then we watched copious amounts of aquateen hunger force. today we made the cast of aquateen out of clay. we are the best crafters ever.

also, we ate healthy the entire weekend and were not gluttonous at all. i have discovered that weight watchers is a fun system and i like seeing how many points are in food. i spent much of the weekend looking through nadine's "propaganda". we decided that the core plan is bad because it's too complicated and you can't blow the waiter if you go to a restaurant. or at least, you can't swallow if you do... and that happens to be one of my favorite activities.

now i'm back to the real world... or at least my equivalent of it. work tomorrow, work and class tuesday, and so on. but in less than two weeks, i go visit celeste, and that makes me happy. and now i go sleep because i'm really exhausted right now.

i love brian

2006-02-25T21:12:11Z

i'm in lancaster for the weekend, and i just had to briefly update that brian is my new hero. he made me this new icon which i love more than life itself. yay!

now i'm off to make crafty thingies with nadine.

this was an excellent waste of time

2006-02-24T04:53:48Z

The Random Question Meme!

An array of completely random questions about my friends!

What is walkingfish's sexiest feature?: nose, definitely. either that or left elbow.
What is talesanddreams's religion?: catholic. but i heard she might be converting to rastafarianism.
Is weird_wanderer evil?: no... but he might be if he gets replaced by a pod person.
What would your life be like if you had never met relena_wolf?: much much sadder in many ways. however, if i had never met julie, i probably wouldn't be friends with chris either, and then i wouldn't currently be struggling through the fountainhead for months on end...
maximumhk: pansy, or wuss?: pansy, most definitely.
What kind of person would you set up with redheifer?: a sexy lumberjack who wears men's thongs.
What is spacehen's favorite band?: she likes to tell everyone it's the beatles, but secretly she loves michael bolton.
newarcadia is in a maze of twisty passages, all alike. What now?: she curls up into a little ball and dies.
What kind of book would crazygirl62612 and kittenshoes jointly write?: good question... they don't know each other at all. i'm guessing it would be pretty wacky though. maybe a cookbook of different ways to cook with jello.
What's the biggest difference between beautifulmaking and neologue?: one of them is not a duck. you figure out which one.

This is by heptadecagram. You can find your own completely random questions here.

Do you feel enlightened now?

loyalty and cuteness

2006-02-22T12:10:12Z

i think that my client nemo may be the person who's the most loyal to me that anyone's ever been. yesterday i had an annual meeting for him... meet with his case manager and his house manager and some coordinator dude to discuss how he's doing and discuss how he's doing. he didn't talk the whole time except a couple times to laugh at something i said or respond to my prompting.

of course, the time he decided to actually talk in a complete sentence, he decided to announce that he wanted to steal a red car and take me on a date, and then he told us all about his 10 girlfriends. then he protested when it was time to go home and told his house manager that he wanted me to take him home instead. i think he only let her eventually because the van was red ;)

i'm going to miss that man when i leave in july.

the best compliment i've ever received

2006-02-22T03:52:43Z

"you don't strike me as the type who'd become a prostitute. i think that's why i hang out with you."

joe said that to me yesterday. i told him it was the nicest thing anyone's ever said to me. i dare anyone to come up with better. :-P

my dream wins at life, my diningware collection of fire, and a massive announcement.

2006-02-19T01:08:51Z

well, i promised y'all a real update that wasn't about me being drunk or whining about the state of my life. this is that update. in three parts.

part the first. i had THE BEST dream *ever* on thursday night. the description goes as follows:
i was meeting joe at his apartment to go to lunch, and his apartment was a college dorm room, and his roommate was VOLDEMORT. except that he was like 24 years old and HOTTTTT (yes, with that many t's, because he was that good looking). joe had no idea who he was, and i explained, and he still seemed unconcerned, because apparently he'd been asleep for about a week. he had been in a fight and gotten hit on the head or something, and had since been in his bed in some sort of coma. i was still somewhat concerned because it was voldemort and he could, of course, kill us all if he woke up, but i decided not to worry about it for the time being and head out to lunch. but just as we were leaving, he woke up. he looked around confusedly, and it soon became clear that he didn't know who he was or really where he was. suddenly, though, he pointed at one of the closets in the room (there were 5, and they were moving around) and told the door to open. i'm guessing that's where he kept all of his evil wizard paraphernalia and he somehow sensed, even though he didn't remember anything, that that closet was important. however, there had apparently been some sort of spell put on that closet that switched it with one of the other 5 closets whenever he tried to open it, because only bunnies came out. he looked confused for a minute, then just said "oh, i guess that's not my closet". next he turned around, climbed up the wall like spiderman, and sat in the rafters. and that was the end of my dream. any suggestions as to what it means? other than the fact that i have the best dreams in the world?

part the second, which also has to do with how geeky i am in the harry potter way. last night i was in lancaster visiting nadine and brian, and we decided to go to a paint-your-own-pottery place. nadine picked out a cool star-shaped dish, and i picked out a massive goblet, because i like drinking out of really large things. she saw it and said "are you going to make a goblet of fire?" as soon as she asked, i knew that i definitely had to do that. so now i have my very own goblet of fire... or at least i will in a week once it's been fired and stuff. and i will drink out of it constantly. so i decided afterwards, at dinner, that i should make a matching collection of diningware, so i can have a martini glass of fire, and a soup bowl of fire, and so on and so forth. because that would be awesome. nadine and i have also decided that i have to start writing harry potter fan fiction just so i can write a story called "harry potter and the soup bowl of fire", in which voldemort curses harry's soup to make it too hot and he burns his tongue. i think it would be a hit. if i ever actually write this, i shall make sure to post it here... just be forewarned, i've also been told it has to be slash fiction (which means, for the uninitiated, that the characters have sex with strange people).

part the third, which is considerably more serious than parts the first of second. i've decided that i'm leaving school. and i know i say quite frequently that i want to drop out of school and be a rock star, but lately i've actually been quite serious when i said i want to drop out of school. i'm entirely burned out and i'm unsure if i actually want to go into the profession that i'm studying for, for a number of reasons, not all of which i'm going to type here because it would get long. i do think i'll go back someday... maybe not here or for the same thing, but i think i'll probably eventually go to grad school. but i definitely think that i need some time where i'm not in school, because i've been there way too long. as for a plan... my first plan was to be a hobo, but then i realized that i'd go on trains and scare miriam's grandma. also, there's not that many freight trains left around here, so i'd actually have a fair amount of trouble being a hobo. but in all seriousness, i'm going to try to find a job working with special needs people still, maybe something somewhat similar to what i'm doing right now but for a better organized program and something that pays me enough to live on. i've done some research, and there's a bunch of stuff that i'm qualified to do that i'd be happy doing, at least for a couple years while i get my head on straight. and to answer a couple potential questions: yes, i am going to finish this semester. i have a lease in bethlehem through the end of june, and i signed my contract at work for the same. so i'm here until then, but i'm not thinking about staying in bethlehem, really. i'm thinking about moving to delaware probably (wilmington area), or closer to home, though not back in with my parents.

so there, you've got your real update. and apparently, lots has been going on in my life. but in general, i'm good. and i'm confident that my decision to not be in school anymore is a good one for me. so yeah, i think i'm done writing now, and soon kenny will be here to visit me and i believe we're supposed to be doing something festive and maybe watching the happiness of the katakuris (because it's my mission in life to make everyone and their mother watch and love that movie). later!

happy day of stupid crap, i suppose

2006-02-15T00:34:33Z

so i've been going a bit crazy as of late, because i have mucho stuff on my mind, which will all be revealed in due time. plus, valentine's day is really not my favorite day of the year. however, this looks like it should be fun, so you should all go here and do what the computer tells you to.

also, i had a dream last night that harry potter was gay. it made me sad.